Change,

You wont see me for a while. 
Because I don’t know how to limit myself on tumblr

or facebook, or the internet in general.
I sit in my room away from the world because this is all ive known. 
But I need to go experience things.

 I need this change in my life for bigger and better things. 
I need to get serious on this whole losing weight.
I know a lot of people say oh you’re not fat, blahblah.
You’re still pretty.
Yes to you.
To me? Im disgusting.
I need to love myself. I dont. At all. So Heres the start.
The shitty. Start.
But ill be happy in the end.
And I feel like im going to lose some people on the way,
But I need to do this.

Doctors tomorrow.  
Im scared. Alone again.
But thats the way it is.